The Furious Spinner

I'm so nervous about this surgery that I'm finding it difficult to relax or think about anything else. *sigh* I'm trying to be in the now, baby, but maybe I should think about what I have to look forward to after the surgery is successful.

I'll be able to breathe through my nose again. That's a very good thing.

I'll be able to smell again. This will be such fun! Falls Creek here I come!

I'll be able to taste better. Ooooh! Think of the food I can make. (All right, let's get real: Think of all the food Mario can make for me.) I'll actually be able to taste it.

Maybe the ringing in my ears will subside. Silence would be really golden if it were actually silent.

The chronic dizziness should get better. Yeah!!! If I want the world to spin, I'll have to actually go on a merry-go-round.

My nose won't be so swollen: children on the street won't run screaming from me in horror.

I'm going to survive this, and it'll be fine. Right? Right.

Go for my pre-op with the surgeon and anesthesiologist tomorrow. The next day I go for a pre-op with my family doc. Both great talented women.

Day after New Moon is the surgery. February 28.

Cross your fingers. Or wish me good luck. Wish the surgeon and anesthesiologist steady hands, etc. I'll accept rituals, ceremonies, good wishes, prayers, good thoughts, whatever. Pulease.

I still wish they (the polyps) would just go away before the surgery.

Lots of dreams. Last night in my dream, my family skipped town without me, leaving behind their baggage. In the meantime I picked up their baggage but lost my own. This dream is so symbolic I had to laugh. 4 comments

4 Comments:

Dearest Kim

Please know you are being held in loving, healing energy...and all who will be advancing your healing with their medical expertise and experience are being held too. Visualize all you want to come through this surgery, and it will come.

with much love from your sister in Michigan

By  Patricia, at 8:51 PM  

Patricia said it best, Kim. Just know that I'm sending you best wishes for a successful, easy surgery, and a fast healing.
And the media has been all over the shooting and the way it was handled.

By  Sheila, at 9:08 PM  

Dear Kim
I, too, echo Patricia's words, and am holding you and your "healers" in good, positive, loving and healing energy.
I see you running effortlessly through the woods, scooping up delighted children, who laugh and hug you as you smell and eat delectable food made by Mario, not one dizzy moment or ringing noise in your all-healed head! :)
You know I am holding you in lots of love,

By  genevieve, at 8:47 AM  

Thank you, thank you, thank you!!! I went to see the doc today. They're checking out my heart and did some blood work. Hope that all works out. My doc said, "See you in two weeks. We're gonna have fun in the operating room." I kinda liked that.

By  Kim Antieau, at 7:31 PM  

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